As a child, I suffered from sexual abuse at the hands of my brother – as it started at such a young age, any relationship with him was associated with the abuse. He was much older than me, cunning, and opportunistic. That’s how I saw him.
Too young to understand what was correct until I reached the age of 9, I felt lonely and was too afraid to bring the subject to anyone, and so deeply ashamed of what was happening to me later on as a teenager.
Then, one day, I spoke up about the abuse to my family – and instead of receiving the support I thought I rightly deserved, I was placed aside, not talked to, and pretty much told to move on as it was now a long time ago. I felt I became the black sheep of the family.
I had rage within me, anger, years of pain that just wanted to come out, blame my parents for not seeing things, not protecting me. I wanted to blame them, make them feel miserable and so I did.
My relationship with my entire family deteriorated to such a point that we did not see each other, and barely talked to one another for several years.
We tried to make up, but it felt fake as nothing within me was really changing. Old arguments would come back after a few weeks, blaming, anger, etc. It just felt like running in a circle.
Then I came across the teachings by Belsebuub, and I started to understand all my feelings and emotions. I was capable of healing myself, to go deeper than what normal psychology was giving me. It had been useful but was no longer enough as I kept repeating the same patterns.
Thanks to the teachings by Belsebuub, I was able to stop my rage, my need to blame my parents, and for making them feel responsible. I understood my reactions, my emotions, my thoughts etc. And what a relief it was – to finally be able once again call my parents “mum” and “dad” and to feel and return their love.
I was able to see their pain, to see how their indifference after I had opened up was due to their suffering for not having been able to protect me, and having failed at their most important job: parenthood. They were ashamed, and did not know how to cope with things.
I helped them heal with all that I had learned from Belsebuub’s teachings. From working on my anger, they were not responding with anger to me. From working on my hate, love started to resurface again between each other. From being able to talk to them in awareness brought different outcomes to conversations. And little by litte, with years our communication and relationship improved so dramatically, it took a 180 degree turn. We now talk on a weekly basis and visit each other whenever it is possible.
No – it was not easy, and it is still sometimes not easy – but what I’ve learned from my own experience is that if someone (at least) is working on themselves, then things are totally different. Life may bring suffering, many different types of suffering, but learning and making use of what we experience and go through is an option we have and that Belsebuub talks about and teaches about. I did not know we could, I did not know I would be able to overcome all this, but I did.
I was also able to see my brother for who he is, and stop associating him with the abuse. I was able to see his good side, and his bad side – to understand what had made him do these things to me. And to truly see him, to see his sufferings, his repentance. I was able to talk with him for real, and to learn to love him again. To know and feel that I have a brother again that I had lost such a long time ago now.
He finally opened up, and we learned he also had been abused as a child by a teacher during camp, for a whole weekend. Using what I had learned helped me help him. We understand each other and he also tried to apply the teachings by Belsebuub, and he has been responding to life in a better way – though he is not fully interested in these teachings, it has helped him understand himself, and see the reality of things.
My family went from being broken, destroyed to a more loving and stronger family whose ties between one another are now weaved not jut with black thread, but with lots of colors. From sufferings and destroyed trust, my family is now closer to one another.
No, it is not picture perfect and how could it be? It’s family after all – but what the teachings of Belsebuub have taught me is that Love is the truest way to act and live life by. And though I cannot control what people say or do, I have learnt that I have a choice in how I respond to other people’s actions or comments, and that this choice is priceless.
That with awareness, disintegration of egos, and working on oneself we can really make a difference in ourselves and in people around us.
That change within brings real change all around us, in our lives, and in our relationships.
And that is a better way to live, and for that I am so deeply grateful for what Belsebuub through his efforts and work has been able to bring to the world: obscure or metaphorical teachings are now within my grasp, clear and practical spirituality that can change the world.
This is my story, it is a story of hope.
~ Anonymous
Your story is very touching! And though I am sorry you have had to go through so much suffering, I am happy that you and your family were able to work through it all and overcome the “darkness” of it all.
I have seen as well that within a family it can be so easy to harbor a lot of anger & negativity, for a lot of blame to trench roots. Recently, seeing some headlines in the news I was very touched by a story of a child that died at the hands of its parents, because they were angry & desperate and chose the wrong way to discipline their child. Through it all what stood out to me the most was the sad fact that these people did not seem evil, malicious parents out to get their child. They were seemingly normal people, powerless to handle their own anxiety, anger and frustration. The punishment they chose for their child is no doubt something many others put their children through, only in this case it ended in a tragic way. If only they were able to see past their frustration, to find some patience, peace & balance internally, the sad fate of their child (& the family) would have been much different. How sad that this is the state of so many families in the world, when the family is the very place where we can learn so much love and experience much joy.
Wow, your story is truly a story of hope.
Thank you so much for sharing this with us. I’m very sorry to hear what you’ve been through, but also very inspired to see the way you’ve been able to confront the situation with your family and grow as a person.
It’s so hard sometimes to accept the suffering that life hands us and actually be able to grow and change for the better because of it, and it sounds like you’ve been able to do just that. Really, your story is an amazing example of how powerful Belsebuub’s teachings are when they are applied.
Anyways, thank you again for sharing, and I wish you and your family lots of strength. I hope you are able to share peaceful times with them in the future and that you continue towards realizing your spiritual goals.
I don’t think I can express how inspiring and powerful that story was. In reading it, I am filled with strength and a deeper faith in these teachings.
It’s so amazing that given the tragic childhood of the author, they managed to turn their entire life around and find real love and understanding. How truly inspiring that by diligently applying Belsebuub’s teachings, so much good could come of that darkness!
After reading that, despite the terrible state of the world, I feel a happy future for everyone really is possible. The potential is there!
It is an amazing story of hope, thanks very much for sharing it with us. It is wonderful that you were able to find these teachings and apply them and find much more peace and happiness and understanding for yourself and your family.
Thankyou for sharing your story. It is a true testament to your strength of character and ability to practice these teachings that you were able to turn everything around like that. I can’t imagine how difficult a situation it must have been, but it sounds like you have grown from it and been able to help your family grow too which is amazing!
I also find the story very inspiring that someone who had to go through the suffering and was able to find so much wisdom and learning from it. I find for me that is what is really amazing about Belsebuub’s teachings. You can really change inside what seemed impossible to do before.
I found that the more we understand ourselves by applying awareness, self observation and elimination of different inner states, the more we are able to feel the compassion and love for those around us. I often see in myself that when others act with a certain inner state. I want to get angry at them, judge them and just simply respond in a same way. But then I see what it is that causing them to act that way and I see it in myself. Then I really understand that I have no right to judge them and with little understanding that I have I am able to react differently. Often later I find that even their reaction changes as they have understood something without consciously realizing it. That has really shown me that this Work can really bring a much more loving and caring for each other if only we are diligent enough. It really has the potential to make us better people.
Wow. What a story of courage and hope. Thank you for sharing this with us. It just goes to show no matter how deep your troubles may be, the teachings of Belsebuub allow you to pull yourself up in a way that really goes right to your core. Family is such a delicate thing even in the best of circumstances, so I can only imagine how hard it was/is to face all of the struggles within yours. It’s really very inspiring. It’s not everyday you hear of someone taking a stand against the reactions, thoughts and emotions within and deciding to truly change and live life more spiritually. I wish you and your family much strength!
Thank you very very much for sharing your story. It`s really encouraging to see you making these steps towards developing true trust, spiritual love and real hope.
Beutiful lotus flowers grow out of mud…The more darkness, the harder is the struggle, yet the more light may arise out of it. Your story is a marvelous example of that. You were able to overcome that sort of difficulty, you can do a lot. I had tears after reading your story…
All the best to you and your relatives with all what you need at your individual stages of spiritual progress and together.
Thank you everyone for your kind words. I wanted to share this story because it really illustrated to me how these teachings have worked in my life. In a weird way, I feel that we don’t necessarily notice the changes or the effects these teachings have on ourselves as the battle within is taking place or as we practice them, yet reflecting and looking back, we can realize how much things may have changed in our lives.
I used to be very hard with my mother, and had a very difficult relationship with her, but after realizing what I was doing, and seeing how much I was hurting her and the rest of my family, I was really sad to have become such a difficult person with them, but I did not know what to do about it. I was just reacting to the situation the best I thought I could with the knowledge I had at the time, yet it was obviously not good enough seeing how we were with one another.
And perhaps, to the “normal” world, things did not look that bad and excuses or justifications could always be made, yet I know now that it never has to be that way, I know this for truth – we can see all the ugliness festering in ourselves, and we are able to do something about it.
I’m really glad I’ve found these teachings because they helped me to really overcome what was going on – and it is truly amazing to see the power these teachings have – they really, really do work. And truly, to be able to get this information so straight forward by Belsebuub was a blessing.
One thing I’ve learned from all this, is that we each have to go through things, and it does not matter how horrible or menial / trivial we think they may be – when we’re locked in the ego, we’re just locked no matter what. But whatever it is that is blocking and locking us, we can overcome even if it’s little by little.
So I really look forward reading and learning back from all of us – what we each have gone through, learned, experienced. There is this feeling when we gain an insight that is incredible, and everything counts.
So thank you everyone for your support and kind words, and thank you to Belsebuub.
Definitely a story of hope. Great to hear you have been able to gain love in your family.
I have seen a vast difference in the relationship with my family too, by applying the practices like awareness and understanding and eliminating emotions like anger and resentment.
Things aren’t ever picture-perfect are they? But that doesn’t mean we can’t have peace with ourselves and others.
Your story gives a clear meaning about the power of Love and hope that Belsebuub’s teachings brings to everyone life. Thank you very much for sharing your story, very encouraging to me to do all these difficult steps for you family.
Hard story to share but very hopeful and it shows how love is truly what we should fight for and strive toward feeling, experiencing and living in accordance with. Thank you and much love, strength to all those involved.
And may peace be with everyone.
Thank you so much for sharing your story, your pain as well as hope. It is amazing that it is possible to turn things around like that and that these teachings can touch a whole family. It’s a precious and strange thing to have the knowledge to change.
Thank you again for your courage to write about this.
Thank you for sharing your story!!
It’s wonderful for me also to see how this Work works on others apart the personal benefit.
I find your story so true, human and objective that it proves that everyone who apply this Work could give themselves the chance to change radically their life.
Thank you again and nice continuity to you and your family.
This is an amazing story. Thank you very much for having the courage to come forward and share it. It is really awful what you describe going through, but it also shows just how powerful and beneficial these teachings can be, that you were able to turn things around and overcome so much to bring such positive changes after such terrible events. It really is a story of hope.
I am very inspired by the degree of compassion and love you have found after going through such a difficult experience. Especially how you found forgiveness in your heart for your own brother and managed to heal your relationship with him and also helped him heal through these teachings. Your story is a true testament to how beneficial these teachings are and that they really work when applied. Thank-you for sharing your story of how these teachings really changed your life. I wish much continued strength to you and your family.
Thank you so much for sharing this difficult story. It reminds me what this work is all about and how powerful it is. I wish you continued strength and love on your journey.
Thank you so much for sharing such a personal story with such honesty. It is profound and inspiring to see the way the teachings have worked in your life, and their power to make positive and lasting change.